Shoot!!

I'm no different

I'm just the same

Simply a different name

A different face

Comfort in self pity

Comfort in misery

Comfort in hating myself

Comfort in nothing

You're better than I am

Everybody is

I'm a nobody

A loser

I'm a freak

Go ahead

Laugh at me

I don't care anymore

I like being sad

But lately

Nothing's been bad

Everything is going....smoothly

I hate it

It bothers me

I must be doing something right

Which feels so wrong..

Put me down

Kick dirt in my face

Give me a reason

To not want to be alive

I like it that way

Asleep

Long drunken nights

You call you're new fling

Thinking it's something

You tell him a few thousand things

he laughs

Smiles on the other side

Bored to sleep

What a way to dream

Eyes wide open

He waits to make sure

He listens carefully

Maybe she'll snore

He lights another cigarette

Takes another swig

She's entering the void

Hoping to hear his voice

He awaits

In silence

She wants to see him

He wants to see her

She's merely talking out of intoxication

He's lost in meditation

It's nice to have company

Someone to share the deprivation

He doesn't mind

He's wondering what she's thinking

Imagining the world

From a different perspective

He loves it

He wants more

He wants to hold her

To cuddle, to kiss

But she's not herself

And he won't do that

He holds on to the thought

Of what might just be..

Holidays

A time for joy

A time for laughter

A time for hoodies

A time for tears

A time to break free

From all your fears

Time to let loose

And cuddle by a bonfire

A time to look up at the night sky

No bugs around

Just you and your loved one

A time of peace

No time to fight

This time of year calls for work

Hard work

All over the world

No time for breaks

Until the end of the day

Music keeps you sane

Ideas seem plain

Actions become louder

Words become obsolete

Hug them tighter

Kiss them longer

Enjoy your time

It could be your last

Until next year

You never know

If you'll still be around

To see it all again

Watch longer

Play harder

Act stronger

Hold your hands up

Until your arms are numb

It's the holiday fun!

Alone

Somethings gotta give

The chaos is driving me mad

I've lived in it so long

I begin to see the beauty

A sad song, boring, long

A reinvented future

I read a book to stay awake

Then another to keep me sane

Poems of EAP 

The story of the future

A man gone insane

words he thought he already wrote

A loud plane engine

Like a train, humming by

Raccoons in the woods

Chasing rats

Mating

Calling

Not sure what to say

He says what's on his mind

He speaks the truth

To a certain extent

If you felt it in your heart

Then there's nothing to invent

The borderline of insanity

Your house and the woods

A single fence

Stopping your pets

From running away

Never coming back your way

Tap tap tap

In the silence

A bat glides by

Silently 

But louder then you thought

Madness 

Bullshit

I'm fed up

Maybe you don't deserve me

You aren't worth my time

So you change your mind

To save me the pain

I'm free

Angry

I spill my thoughts

Vomit

My brain is sober

Maybe that's the case

Eternal vacuum 

4x6

Spiders with wings

Love stings

Burns you on the inside

Rots you slowly

You're a zombie

Why do I try

It always dies

 It makes me upset

I almost cry

Tears in my eye

I hold it back

Affection for myself

My family

Music is always soothing

Distracting my mind

From the comfort of the void

That brings me so much joy

They play with me

Make my hopes fly

Only to grab the rifle

And shoot it down

I'm a warehouse manager

I might as well be a clown

Hello

He talks so smooth

She walks so tall

He smokes a cig

She drops the ball

He's down to earth

She makes him fly

He doesn't accept it

She hands it to him

He's scared of failure

She loves success

He wants to be

She sets him free

He makes a sound

She makes it clean

He says no

She says green

He tells the truth

She is the queen

He's a sad boy

She's a nice girl

He isn't worthy

She is lonely

He wants to see

She gives him eyes

He is the drug

She is the pipe

He doesn't know What to say

She doesn't know what to do

He writes his sorrows

She washes the pain

He says 

Hello

She says 

Hello

They see the world

Blissfully

Octubre second

Tired

Overwhelmed

The days turn into one

Weeks turn into years

It all feels the same

Numb

Flashes of lightning

From a distance

Panting 

Paving

He sniffs the ground

She watches

Lost in his own mind

His cage is getting old

Rusted

When the door breaks...

RUN

don't stop

Take it

You want it

A Jedi master

He thinks he's smooth

I'm on the dark side

We never lose

Life ain't a movie

There's no colorful hues

rainbow shoes

Those are simply lies

Good is not always on top

Only you

The second of October

He's got the blues

Evil thoughts

Evil thoughts

Get a clue

It's not just you